Thursday, January 31, 2008
W00ht
The email address I have doesn't work anymore, I got a failure notice. Email me at afeskimo@yahoo.com
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Current Happenings
Well, come to find out, I can't take my cats with me to England when I leave. They have to stay here and have some lab work done and some paperork processed before they can head over there. Apparently the UK has some of the hardest rules for bringing pets into the country.
Still trying to get visas and such taken care of. This whole move has been nothing but one big cluster, from the get-go.
My grandmother and sister were here for a couple days, it was great to see them.
Scout turned 12, and I am still looking for him a present......I hate having to wait until payday to get him something.
School is going relatively well, nice change of pace from last semester......
Still trying to get visas and such taken care of. This whole move has been nothing but one big cluster, from the get-go.
My grandmother and sister were here for a couple days, it was great to see them.
Scout turned 12, and I am still looking for him a present......I hate having to wait until payday to get him something.
School is going relatively well, nice change of pace from last semester......
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Under Contract
So the house is under contract. Today is the home inspection. Fabulous.
My sister and Gamaw are coming to see us Sunday. I am looking forward to seeing them.
My best friend is guilt-tripping me about coming to his wedding. I really am going to do my best to go. His fiancee says that I have to be there to stay with him the night before the wedding and give her a break. I love that she is so comfortable with my friendship with Chris that she doesn't mean ANY of that sexually.......that and she likes to see me gag at the idea of sleeping with Chris. I mean he's cute and all, but ICK, that's like incest.......
School starts today. I am awful at writing papers, I swear......must do better......
Our household goods are being packed and taken away 4, 5, and 6 February. Yikes, I have soooo much to go through before I am ready for that!!!!
Today began my time as a stay home mom. Wasn't too bad, except MiniMachine having a total meltdown(she's turning into a little diva, God help me) to go outside and play with her brothers. She was at the closet where we keep coats and shoes, yelling 'hooo!' at me(she wanted her shoes), tears rolling down her cheecks, eyes red which makes the blue stick out even more, the whole 9 yards. I mean she pitched a hissy fit, too........
My sister and Gamaw are coming to see us Sunday. I am looking forward to seeing them.
My best friend is guilt-tripping me about coming to his wedding. I really am going to do my best to go. His fiancee says that I have to be there to stay with him the night before the wedding and give her a break. I love that she is so comfortable with my friendship with Chris that she doesn't mean ANY of that sexually.......that and she likes to see me gag at the idea of sleeping with Chris. I mean he's cute and all, but ICK, that's like incest.......
School starts today. I am awful at writing papers, I swear......must do better......
Our household goods are being packed and taken away 4, 5, and 6 February. Yikes, I have soooo much to go through before I am ready for that!!!!
Today began my time as a stay home mom. Wasn't too bad, except MiniMachine having a total meltdown(she's turning into a little diva, God help me) to go outside and play with her brothers. She was at the closet where we keep coats and shoes, yelling 'hooo!' at me(she wanted her shoes), tears rolling down her cheecks, eyes red which makes the blue stick out even more, the whole 9 yards. I mean she pitched a hissy fit, too........
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Still in WA
We leave for my father in laws house tomorrow. Not something I am looking forward to. My FIL and his gf are very much neat freaks when it comes to the Seigerman family. Not so for the gf's family. She's also rather pushy, trying to make nice with my FIL's kids. I'm dreading this trip.
I got a new tattoo. "Sassy" for my sister, above the inside left ankle.
School starts in a couple weeks, and I must say that I am looking forward to it. My review of my prior education is done, and it has been determined that I lack 58 credits before I am done with my Bachelor's. YAY!!!!! Ziggy is actually contemplating school, which would be useful to him.
Wrote a new story, will transmit for publishing today, hopefully.
Going to the hash with the Inland Empire H3. Should be a good time.
Had an offer on our house, and they couldn't buy it without the closing costs. So we made them choose between closing costs and carpet. And every counter offer they came back with was pushing for carpet. Really grated my nerves. they walked away eventually, and I am kind of glad, actually. the housing market is supposed to be turning up here in a couple months, so who knows what is coming down the line.
On-On.........
I got a new tattoo. "Sassy" for my sister, above the inside left ankle.
School starts in a couple weeks, and I must say that I am looking forward to it. My review of my prior education is done, and it has been determined that I lack 58 credits before I am done with my Bachelor's. YAY!!!!! Ziggy is actually contemplating school, which would be useful to him.
Wrote a new story, will transmit for publishing today, hopefully.
Going to the hash with the Inland Empire H3. Should be a good time.
Had an offer on our house, and they couldn't buy it without the closing costs. So we made them choose between closing costs and carpet. And every counter offer they came back with was pushing for carpet. Really grated my nerves. they walked away eventually, and I am kind of glad, actually. the housing market is supposed to be turning up here in a couple months, so who knows what is coming down the line.
On-On.........
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Flying with small children
I went to Iraq in the service of my country. I got through combat take-offs and combat landings without wanting to kill everyone around me. I've been through mortar attacks. And none of that scared me nearly as much as loading MiniZiggy and MiniMachine on a plane and flying cross-country. I was terrified that I was going to be one of those horror stories that you see on tv, the woman that gets kicked off the plane because her children won't stop screaming. I was pretty confident that was going to be me. And it seemed like it was almost true.
Ziggy and I kept MiniZiggy up, thinking that he'd sleep on the way to the airport in DC. Yea, I couldn't have been more wrong. He whined almost the entire 3 and a half hours to Reagan National. Which grated my nerves thin, very quickly. I can't stand it when he whines like that. Runs me nuts and I have no patience for it. Well, we made it to the airport, and MiniZiggy dragged his feet going into the airport. Then, going through security he threw a tantrum, fabulous. So we get to the gate, and we have to wait about an hour before we can board the plane. That's ok, except both MiniZiggy and MiniMachine want to roam around, and in opposite directions from each other, making it difficult for me to keep up with both of them, and keep track of the baggage. MiniMachine was a real trooper, it must be said. She was fabulous up until we got to the bottom of the ramp to the plane, and she had to get out of the stroller, as it was being checked at the plane. Then she freaked out, and I'm still not too sure why. Big tears, pouty lip, little arms stretched out to Mama for comfort. So I was the woman getting on the plane with a 3 year old who was being stubborn, a 16-month-old that's crying and clinging to me, and a car seat. The flight attendants were NOT at all helpful, nor polite.
The first flight wasn't too bad, despite the flight attendants and their lack of help or manners. MiniMachine slept most of the time and MiniZiggy wanted to know what all was going on. I thought he'd flip when the engines started, but he was good. we took off, and all 3 of us were almost instantly asleep.
Thank goodness for the nice folks at the Armed Services Service Center in Minneapolis! They were so helpful, with toys for the kids to amuse themselves with, and hot food for them to eat. Best of all, they escorted me through security so I could get to the gate faster. They were so nice, and so helpful.
The second flight was longer than I had thought, unfortunately. But we made it, with minimal dirty looks from other passengers because the kids didn't want to sit in seats anymore.
I dread doing it again in 2 weeks, on the reverse flight back........
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Ziggy and I kept MiniZiggy up, thinking that he'd sleep on the way to the airport in DC. Yea, I couldn't have been more wrong. He whined almost the entire 3 and a half hours to Reagan National. Which grated my nerves thin, very quickly. I can't stand it when he whines like that. Runs me nuts and I have no patience for it. Well, we made it to the airport, and MiniZiggy dragged his feet going into the airport. Then, going through security he threw a tantrum, fabulous. So we get to the gate, and we have to wait about an hour before we can board the plane. That's ok, except both MiniZiggy and MiniMachine want to roam around, and in opposite directions from each other, making it difficult for me to keep up with both of them, and keep track of the baggage. MiniMachine was a real trooper, it must be said. She was fabulous up until we got to the bottom of the ramp to the plane, and she had to get out of the stroller, as it was being checked at the plane. Then she freaked out, and I'm still not too sure why. Big tears, pouty lip, little arms stretched out to Mama for comfort. So I was the woman getting on the plane with a 3 year old who was being stubborn, a 16-month-old that's crying and clinging to me, and a car seat. The flight attendants were NOT at all helpful, nor polite.
The first flight wasn't too bad, despite the flight attendants and their lack of help or manners. MiniMachine slept most of the time and MiniZiggy wanted to know what all was going on. I thought he'd flip when the engines started, but he was good. we took off, and all 3 of us were almost instantly asleep.
Thank goodness for the nice folks at the Armed Services Service Center in Minneapolis! They were so helpful, with toys for the kids to amuse themselves with, and hot food for them to eat. Best of all, they escorted me through security so I could get to the gate faster. They were so nice, and so helpful.
The second flight was longer than I had thought, unfortunately. But we made it, with minimal dirty looks from other passengers because the kids didn't want to sit in seats anymore.
I dread doing it again in 2 weeks, on the reverse flight back........
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Sunday, December 30, 2007
All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go......
Yeaaaaaa, not so much. It's 9:33PM as I type this, and I am supposed to be packing to leave for Washington State with MiniZiggy and MiniMachine. So far, just their suitcase is packed. I never procrastinate like this......I need to download more to my MP3 player for the flight. MiniZiggy is all kinds of getting on my nerves, it's going to be a VERY long flight.
I am resolved to lose 20 pounds, and get as close to finishing my degree as I can. I will also write more letters and stories.
I hate flying. I'm not afraid of it, I just hate doing it. But, it's the fastest way to get places, so I do it.
I am resolved to lose 20 pounds, and get as close to finishing my degree as I can. I will also write more letters and stories.
I hate flying. I'm not afraid of it, I just hate doing it. But, it's the fastest way to get places, so I do it.
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
I don't wanna
..........go to work tomorrow. I'm enjoying relaxing.
So this is my last week of work. I'm going to miss it. But on the the next thing, right?
My sister in law got engaged today, I am so thrilled for her.
I got my claddagh ring, and the coat I've been wanting for Christmas. YAY!!!
I leave Monday for Washington, and my Mother-in-law has already planned our first trip to the casino. She's scoped out all the newest penny slots for us to play, and I am so excited!
So this is my last week of work. I'm going to miss it. But on the the next thing, right?
My sister in law got engaged today, I am so thrilled for her.
I got my claddagh ring, and the coat I've been wanting for Christmas. YAY!!!
I leave Monday for Washington, and my Mother-in-law has already planned our first trip to the casino. She's scoped out all the newest penny slots for us to play, and I am so excited!
Friday, December 21, 2007
Blah and all randomness
As I sit here, laptop precariously balanced on my knee and the edge of the couch, I am awash is sadness. Ok, maybe not total sadness. Mostly disappointment. Disappointment with an edge of sadness. I don't recall the last time I felt so disappointed in a friend. my body feels heavy with the weight of the disappointment I feel, and I can't seem to shake the grey fog that surrounds me.
I am to the point that I dread getting messages from that friend, because I feel I have nothing to say. It seems I have lost my voice. Or the ability to voice my observations in a clear manner to others.
The friendship hasn't changed, I don't think. Perhaps I have expected more or too much of that friend. Put on a pedestal, disappointment is inevitable when reality sets in. Hitting in a bit close for me right now.
So next week is Christmas. It hardly seems important, what with school, work, selling the house, and all the normal chaos that happens around here. Taken a bit of a back seat to other things, actually, though we have bought presents and such. My mind still thinks I have time to do things inrelation to Christmas.
New Years Eve I take MiniZiggy and MiniMachine to Washington State by myself. This ought to be interesting. 2 toddlers on a plane ride cross country. What madness have I entered into????
So there are those that believe Ziggy and I have the perfect marriage, and that I have the perfect husband. No marriage is perfect, and neither is any spouse. I am very fortunate in my spouse, however. There are a few women I work with who would love to clone Ziggy for themselves. I am flattered, and have warned them in advance that they would be baseball widows, as Ziggy is such a baseball fan he doesn't notice much else between April and October. They didn't seem bothered a bit by that. I think it's very complimentary to Ziggy that other women wish they had a husband like him. Once they hear him snore, they'll think again, LOL.
I am to the point that I dread getting messages from that friend, because I feel I have nothing to say. It seems I have lost my voice. Or the ability to voice my observations in a clear manner to others.
The friendship hasn't changed, I don't think. Perhaps I have expected more or too much of that friend. Put on a pedestal, disappointment is inevitable when reality sets in. Hitting in a bit close for me right now.
So next week is Christmas. It hardly seems important, what with school, work, selling the house, and all the normal chaos that happens around here. Taken a bit of a back seat to other things, actually, though we have bought presents and such. My mind still thinks I have time to do things inrelation to Christmas.
New Years Eve I take MiniZiggy and MiniMachine to Washington State by myself. This ought to be interesting. 2 toddlers on a plane ride cross country. What madness have I entered into????
So there are those that believe Ziggy and I have the perfect marriage, and that I have the perfect husband. No marriage is perfect, and neither is any spouse. I am very fortunate in my spouse, however. There are a few women I work with who would love to clone Ziggy for themselves. I am flattered, and have warned them in advance that they would be baseball widows, as Ziggy is such a baseball fan he doesn't notice much else between April and October. They didn't seem bothered a bit by that. I think it's very complimentary to Ziggy that other women wish they had a husband like him. Once they hear him snore, they'll think again, LOL.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Hallelujah!
My first semester at University of Maryland University College is over, thank the gods!!! My government final was pretty good, I thought. World History up to 1500 made ever cell in my body ache with spent knowledge. I couldn't even form totally coherent sentences with Eunuch, just ask him, as he furnished me with dinner on my way home. Mythology made my hand hurt, as it was a written exam, and I did a hell of a lot of writing!
Next semester starts 23 January. So I now have more time to update my blog, play Mah Jong Solitaire, get ready to move.....
I am planning to go to Washington State with the kids after New Years. I am looking forward to the trip, I love hanging out with my inlaws. And Mason says I may stay as long as I like! Except I have to go to England with him.
I stop work 29 December. I will miss the girls I work with, they are a great bunch. It will be nice not to work for a bit, though I will be busy as hell. I am hoping to get a job working for the Air Force over there, so we'll see how long I stay out of employment.
My Jeep sold. Sniff......
The Casa de Seigerman goes on the market this weekend. Mason and I started painting today. My house looks soooo weird!!!
Alright, off to more painting!!
Next semester starts 23 January. So I now have more time to update my blog, play Mah Jong Solitaire, get ready to move.....
I am planning to go to Washington State with the kids after New Years. I am looking forward to the trip, I love hanging out with my inlaws. And Mason says I may stay as long as I like! Except I have to go to England with him.
I stop work 29 December. I will miss the girls I work with, they are a great bunch. It will be nice not to work for a bit, though I will be busy as hell. I am hoping to get a job working for the Air Force over there, so we'll see how long I stay out of employment.
My Jeep sold. Sniff......
The Casa de Seigerman goes on the market this weekend. Mason and I started painting today. My house looks soooo weird!!!
Alright, off to more painting!!
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Friday, November 23, 2007
Dump
Work has me busy, when I am supposed to be busy getting rid of crap, painting walls, otherwise preparing to move in 2 months. School has me running like a lunatic as well. I have finals next week, and am looking forward to them like devout Christians look forward to the second coming of Christ. They simply can't get here fast enough. Nor do I have the time to study for them, as I am doing homework that is due right up to the day of the final exam. Can we say cruel and unusual punishment????
I went to the hash last weekend, and had a great time. I plan to go tomorrow, as well. I miss hashing.
Ziggy redid my front flowerbed for me, put down mulch and new boundary, I love it. Too bad I have to sell the house and won't get to benefit from it.
Speaking of selling things, my Jeep is up for sale. I am not thrilled about this, but Ziggy is confident that it needs to go. So I grudgingly let him put it on the For Sale lot at Langley.
The holidays are upon us, and due to the move, all the families want our presences. Yea......not working so well.
I am so looking forward to this move, more so than that to Germany. I can't explain why.
Ok, I think that'll do it for now...
I went to the hash last weekend, and had a great time. I plan to go tomorrow, as well. I miss hashing.
Ziggy redid my front flowerbed for me, put down mulch and new boundary, I love it. Too bad I have to sell the house and won't get to benefit from it.
Speaking of selling things, my Jeep is up for sale. I am not thrilled about this, but Ziggy is confident that it needs to go. So I grudgingly let him put it on the For Sale lot at Langley.
The holidays are upon us, and due to the move, all the families want our presences. Yea......not working so well.
I am so looking forward to this move, more so than that to Germany. I can't explain why.
Ok, I think that'll do it for now...
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Current goings-on with me......
Things I am surfing Ebay for:
1. Dress shoes for MiniMachine to wear in Christmas family picture.
2. A Littman Stethescope.
3. Diamond jewelry. Hey, a girl can dream!
4. X-box360 games. Hey, I ain't paying full price, if I can help it!
Things I want to recieve as gifts:
1. A gold Claddagh ring, size 5.5, to be worn on my right hand pinky finger. I want this from Ziggy.
2. New jammies.
3. A Littman stethescope. With great acoustics!!!!!
4. A new Vera Bradley handbag, in that new brown pattern.
5. Vera Wang perfume.
6. Makeup from Sephora. Yes, I've gotten girly.
7. Barnes and Noble gift card.
8. a new mp3 player.
THings that are currently aggravating me:
1. Writing papers for school. Yea.....
2. Paperwork that takes too long to get answers from!
3. Folding laundry
4. Going through crap to get rid of before moving.
5. Finding cute stuff for my daughter to wear that she won't pull out of her hair!
6. WInter clothes for the whole family!!!
7. Selling my Jeep.
Things I'd rather be doing:
1. Watching a movie.
2. Sleeping.
3. Shopping, not buying.
1. Dress shoes for MiniMachine to wear in Christmas family picture.
2. A Littman Stethescope.
3. Diamond jewelry. Hey, a girl can dream!
4. X-box360 games. Hey, I ain't paying full price, if I can help it!
Things I want to recieve as gifts:
1. A gold Claddagh ring, size 5.5, to be worn on my right hand pinky finger. I want this from Ziggy.
2. New jammies.
3. A Littman stethescope. With great acoustics!!!!!
4. A new Vera Bradley handbag, in that new brown pattern.
5. Vera Wang perfume.
6. Makeup from Sephora. Yes, I've gotten girly.
7. Barnes and Noble gift card.
8. a new mp3 player.
THings that are currently aggravating me:
1. Writing papers for school. Yea.....
2. Paperwork that takes too long to get answers from!
3. Folding laundry
4. Going through crap to get rid of before moving.
5. Finding cute stuff for my daughter to wear that she won't pull out of her hair!
6. WInter clothes for the whole family!!!
7. Selling my Jeep.
Things I'd rather be doing:
1. Watching a movie.
2. Sleeping.
3. Shopping, not buying.
Sunday, November 04, 2007
The pleasure of the Gods
Today the tile gods from Mah Jong Solitaire smiled upon me......I had my best game EVER, beating my all time high score......139, 697. GO ME!!!!!
Monday, October 29, 2007
Over my head
I think I am in over my head with school. I am trying, but I'm not sure it's working very well. My insurance job is going to have to go by the way side, and soon. This juggling crap is for the birds.
Probably selling my Jeep. Gotta start going through crap and getting rid of stuff and such. Need to start painting the walls in the casa. Ugh. All of this would go on while the holidays are on, right?
Probably selling my Jeep. Gotta start going through crap and getting rid of stuff and such. Need to start painting the walls in the casa. Ugh. All of this would go on while the holidays are on, right?
Friday, October 26, 2007
Whole, for a bit
I can't explain it, but I was all giggly and giddy last night. Felt good. Haven't felt completely whole in a LONG time. Not since before I had MiniMachine.......
Monday, October 22, 2007
Here we go again!!!!
We are moving. Again. This time, to Jolly Old England, a few hours' drive from London. YEY!!!!!! I can't wait!!!!!! We are supposed to report in February.....
More to follow, of course...
More to follow, of course...
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Oh wow!!
I got my grade back for my paper that I wrote for my Government class. I made a 9 out of 11, and my teacher said it was a good first paper!! WHHHHHEEEEEEWWW!!!!! That makes me feel MUCH better!
I wrote a mega-paper for my Mythology class, and it's 300 words shy of the minimum of 1800. Hopefully, that won't bite me too hard in the butt. I feel pretty confident about the Works Cited page, as I looked up all the formats on the internet, and copied the formats. Those are my nemesis, and I feel like I am improving when it comes to writing academic papers.
I wrote a mega-paper for my Mythology class, and it's 300 words shy of the minimum of 1800. Hopefully, that won't bite me too hard in the butt. I feel pretty confident about the Works Cited page, as I looked up all the formats on the internet, and copied the formats. Those are my nemesis, and I feel like I am improving when it comes to writing academic papers.
Monday, October 08, 2007
What a week
And it's only Monday. Got caught up in a couple classes for the week, got ahead in one, and trying to fix technical problems with the rest. It's enough to make me scream. Really loud.
So, off and running to another busy week. No rest for the weary, I swear, and little time for Ziggy. That's not good, as we rarely don't talk. But things have been really hectic, with no sign of slowing down any time soon.
Got some inside info on getting in with the government as far as being medical goes. Will have to look into it and see how it pans out.
Next semester, not taking 5 classes!!!
So, off and running to another busy week. No rest for the weary, I swear, and little time for Ziggy. That's not good, as we rarely don't talk. But things have been really hectic, with no sign of slowing down any time soon.
Got some inside info on getting in with the government as far as being medical goes. Will have to look into it and see how it pans out.
Next semester, not taking 5 classes!!!
Friday, October 05, 2007
mmmmmm.............
I wrote my first paper for school. Yikes!! I am terrible at writing academic papers, and am terrified that if I miss something, I'll get in trouble for plagarism somehow. So I documented. Like crazy. EVERYTHING. I think. Crossing my fingers and toes, we'll see how it goes......
mmmmmmmm.........I just love how a glass of wine gives you this warm fuzzy comfortable feeling. Like laying in bed with a cup of cappuchino and a good book, or talking the night away with someone close to you. Mmmmmmmm............
Ok, night guys, I have to work tomorrow!!!
mmmmmmmm.........I just love how a glass of wine gives you this warm fuzzy comfortable feeling. Like laying in bed with a cup of cappuchino and a good book, or talking the night away with someone close to you. Mmmmmmmm............
Ok, night guys, I have to work tomorrow!!!
Monday, October 01, 2007
Me and my blog, and things I am saying
I had a coworker tell me that I give too much of myself away. And for whatever reason, that stuck with me. All day I had that kind of churning in the back of my mind. And I started looking at myself, and you know, it's true. I am a pretty giving person. Whether it's the shirt off my back or a piece of my mind, I give pretty freely of both. I know, I know, I gotta watch how much of my mind I give away, or I won't have much left.......anywhooo...
I admit, I have held back when it comes to some people in my life. People who have meant a good bit to me, and for whatever reason, I have reserved things from them. My mother, for example, about religion. I admit, I am chicken-shit when it comes to telling my mom where to get off. This is where Ziggy comes in handy. Ziggy can tell anyone off and not flinch, overthink it, or go from 0 to screaming in under 0.6 seconds. I soooo envy that ability. Like in the movie You've Got Mail, where Tom Hanks is telling Meg Ryan that he wished he could give her all of his zingers and she could be as bad as she wanted. I wish I could borrow that from Ziggy. I would have been at my mother with both barrells blazing yesterday, if I could have had the balls to let rip. Oh, I have more people, believe me.....
My ex-Marine..........yea, if I'd told him what was going on, things would've been very different.
Sadly enough, I put my friend Eunuch into this category. I love Eunuch to death. We have some common interests, and seem a good deal alike, and that may very well be our undoing as friends. Eunuch introduced me to hashing, educated me on beer(though I still am no beer drinker - not Eunuch's fault, either), and otherwise being a good friend with a shoulder to cry on occassionally. I have really enjoyed getting to know Eunuch, but am starting to wonder if the things I hold back from him aren't starting to get in the way a bit. Perhaps I have given too much of myself in a friendship. I have never been in a friendship that was as mutually nutured as my friendship with Eunuch. And yet I feel that perhaps, just maybe, it's just too good to be true that I could have a great friendship with a man without ruining it completely, as I am terribly good at doing. My best friend is not counting in this. I hold back certain parts of myself with Eunuch. I have from the outset. I am a stubborn person, to the core. I tend to not give an inch when it comes to arguments, with the exception of Ziggy. I don't give even a millimeter when it comes to Eunuch. Ziggy has even said he doesn't know if I should. I have always been the one to get walked all over in friendships, and in the last few years I have tried to reverse that trend. I now wonder if I'm not shooting myself in the foot, and should give Eunuch all that he has been asking for from me. It's a quandry, and an impasse as well, it seems.
So without giving details here, I unloaded all that about Eunuch and I. The details don't really matter, I don't think. On the other hand, if I give all that I have held back, thoughts and mmmm, actions, things could change in a way that I'm not willing to deal with.
Rather than end this post on a sad, pensive note, I will throw in some cheer. Speaking of my best friend, Chris Daugherty, I found out tonight that he is ENGAGED!!!!!!!! His girlfriend is great, I met her in April on the big drive from Washington. I think she's a little overwhelmed that I am so stoked for them (I'm a very exuberant person, if you haven't noticed), but hey, if she wasn't good for Chris, he wouldn't be with her. So YAY for Chris and Stephanie!!!!!!!
I admit, I have held back when it comes to some people in my life. People who have meant a good bit to me, and for whatever reason, I have reserved things from them. My mother, for example, about religion. I admit, I am chicken-shit when it comes to telling my mom where to get off. This is where Ziggy comes in handy. Ziggy can tell anyone off and not flinch, overthink it, or go from 0 to screaming in under 0.6 seconds. I soooo envy that ability. Like in the movie You've Got Mail, where Tom Hanks is telling Meg Ryan that he wished he could give her all of his zingers and she could be as bad as she wanted. I wish I could borrow that from Ziggy. I would have been at my mother with both barrells blazing yesterday, if I could have had the balls to let rip. Oh, I have more people, believe me.....
My ex-Marine..........yea, if I'd told him what was going on, things would've been very different.
Sadly enough, I put my friend Eunuch into this category. I love Eunuch to death. We have some common interests, and seem a good deal alike, and that may very well be our undoing as friends. Eunuch introduced me to hashing, educated me on beer(though I still am no beer drinker - not Eunuch's fault, either), and otherwise being a good friend with a shoulder to cry on occassionally. I have really enjoyed getting to know Eunuch, but am starting to wonder if the things I hold back from him aren't starting to get in the way a bit. Perhaps I have given too much of myself in a friendship. I have never been in a friendship that was as mutually nutured as my friendship with Eunuch. And yet I feel that perhaps, just maybe, it's just too good to be true that I could have a great friendship with a man without ruining it completely, as I am terribly good at doing. My best friend is not counting in this. I hold back certain parts of myself with Eunuch. I have from the outset. I am a stubborn person, to the core. I tend to not give an inch when it comes to arguments, with the exception of Ziggy. I don't give even a millimeter when it comes to Eunuch. Ziggy has even said he doesn't know if I should. I have always been the one to get walked all over in friendships, and in the last few years I have tried to reverse that trend. I now wonder if I'm not shooting myself in the foot, and should give Eunuch all that he has been asking for from me. It's a quandry, and an impasse as well, it seems.
So without giving details here, I unloaded all that about Eunuch and I. The details don't really matter, I don't think. On the other hand, if I give all that I have held back, thoughts and mmmm, actions, things could change in a way that I'm not willing to deal with.
Rather than end this post on a sad, pensive note, I will throw in some cheer. Speaking of my best friend, Chris Daugherty, I found out tonight that he is ENGAGED!!!!!!!! His girlfriend is great, I met her in April on the big drive from Washington. I think she's a little overwhelmed that I am so stoked for them (I'm a very exuberant person, if you haven't noticed), but hey, if she wasn't good for Chris, he wouldn't be with her. So YAY for Chris and Stephanie!!!!!!!
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