It's the freakin' weekend, Baby!

WHOOO HOOOO!!!!! I am just SO glad not to be wearing woodland Camo BDU's for 2 days. This week just seemed like no matter where I turned, somehow I was getting more pressure and stress than I can deal with.

I have my PT test run, yet again, on Tuesday. And to make matters even more interesting, I have been going to this mandatory class for the people who are having a hard time passing the test. Does anyone show up? Nope. So when little miss ditzy Pt monitor bitches over my score, I can throw that back at her. And she knows that there's been no one there to run the program, as I've emailed her on several different occassions about this. Yea, this ought to be fun.....

I hit my 4 year mark in the Air Force on Monday. 2 more to go. I have a final exam due on Tuesday, so I know what I'm doing with some of my spare time this weekend!!!

Feeling blue

I don't know what's going on with me lately. I am feeling blue, kind of sad, and generally tired. I don't want to do much. But then again, who can do much once work, dinner, practice, homework, baths and housework are all done? I feel like passing out on a regular basis. My life seems to get busier by the day.

Big update

I started writing this update last night in class, and never posted it. She here it is......a little late, but hey, it's here.....

I am writing this update to my blogas I sit in an extremely dry class at Tidewater Community College.

My day at work was awful. Actually, my whole week totally sucked. It was pisson and bitch at AFeskimo week at Langley's Vehicle Maintenance shop. It was like I couldn't do anything right for Cadillac. I actually ended up in tears today from Kermit bitching at me. I am just glad that I don't have to work tomorrow.

Speaking of tomorrow, my LASIK eye surgery is in the morning and I'm nfot ashamed to say that I am nervous about this.

On the home front, I got my car back, finally, from the body shop. I got lucky with the idiot that rearended us. His insurance company paid for everything, even my deductible. The funny thing is that MY insurance company couldn't even track him down unless they sent out threatening letters to him. Then, the only way they found him was that he'd filed a claim on his truck. Irony, let me tell you.

We have been so busy these past few weeks, it's insane. I have missed snuggling with Ziggy. Speaking of Ziggy, OMG, the visit with my father-in-law. His girlfriend is going through chemo, 'preventive', as she says, as her cancer is very very small. She griped over EVERYTHING!!! And her 16 year old daughter played up the spoiled brat routine to the hilt. This girl ran her mother down for anything and everything she wanted. And the mother gave in, no matter wht. My father in law didb't help it any, letting the girl have whatever she wanted. Yea, so I had these people in my house, while I'm on 12 hour shifts, and they are wanting me to stay up and hang out with them, and be able to get plenty of sleep before I have to get up and do it all over again the next day. I was very unpleasant, and poor Ziggy caught the brunt of it. But he handled it all pretty well, he's such a goof man.

The war phase of the exercise I was working in was WAY too easy. After 12 hours of not doing much, I was ready to be active on a shift. well, as it turned out, I did even less. Every attack I responded to got cancelled, so I was far more unproductive.

I got drunk dialed by CrazyGirl's ex, TheBoy. It was hilarious. He wanted me to drive up to D.C. and have sex with him. I laughed until I cried. He even pulled out the ever pathetic, 'Don't you know who I am?!' as a last ditch to get me to come up there. I cracked up. TheBoy is special in his own little world, and that's about it......I called CrazyGirl and told her about it, and we laughed some more.....

I have had my LASIK surgery now, and my eyes are a bit blurred, but I can see. Not well enough to drive, mind you, but pretty well. Ziggy is going to take me to class tonight because of it. The whole process wasn't very long, and they gave me Valium since I was nervous, and that worked pretty well.

Anyways, sorry it's been a while since I properly updated, but now that I have, I feel better. Have a good weekend!

The weekend

I got Drunk Dialed by CrazyGirl's ex, TheBoy. It was absolutely hilarious. He wanted me to drive up to DC and have sex with him. I laughed and laughed over the idea. Then he brings up the all important kicker.....'Don't you know who I am?!?!" To which I replied that he was only special on his board, and I didn't care. It was hysterical. I laughed til I cried over this whole thing....and then I called CrazyGirl and told her about it, and we proceeded to laugh some more...it was the highlight of an EXTREMELY boring 12 hour shift at work.......

So I'm having my LASIK eye surgery this coming Friday. I have faced life behind glasses for as long as I can remember, so life without them seems a bit daunting. I was telling Ziggy about this yesterday, and he was thinking that I was having second thoughts, which totally to the contrary.

The weather is spectacular, though windy. Gotta love spring. My roses are doing smashingly well. I was planting one the other day, and I dug up a frog, and showed it to MiniZiggy, who was sitting in his bouncy chair in the yard while Mommy was planting flowers. What's the first thing my darling does? Tries to grab it. I wasn't sure how he would react to a frog, so I wouldn't let him have it. But I was pleased to see that he did get scared by it. The dog, Sagres(named for Portugese beer, of all things) scared MiniZiggy the other day, and he's been a bit nervous of the dog since.

Oh Lord am I behind

Sorry for the massive lack of updates. I am working in a war game exercise, and have been on 12 hour shifts for the past week and a half. In short, it sucks. And now I am on the night shift, so things are even more out of whack. and I am massively tired.

The nice bit about working nights is that I can catch up on the movies I've been missing, and get a baby blanket crocheted for a friend.

I got paid $700 in settlement from the idiot that rearended me. And then I got a speeding ticket, not even 2 miles from home. I am going to fight this, as I don't know how the hell the cop could use the radar while she was driving. I think it's bullshit myself.

CrazyGirl and TheBoy have split up, and CrazyGirl is in grief mode. I feel for her, and I just hope that she can find someone worthy of her, and be unimaginably happy. She's a great gal, and deserves to be treated as such.

Monday

I actually did alot of nothing today, and I didn't get into any trouble for it. Gotta love that.

I came home with a splitting headache, which I still have. I hate allergy season.

I finished my rough draft of my next English paper, and though it's not as long as the teacher wants, I think it's thorough, and that will make up for not being the requested length. I hope. I even vaccuumed 3 rooms of the house, I feel so productive. I may even go do a bit of laundry.....AGGGG.......laundry, what's gotten into me?!!?!?!?

I don't know what's into MiniZiggy lately. He hasn't been napping well like he usually does, and he's being fussy a bit more than normal. I wonder if he could be starting to teethe. Ah yes, that wonderful stage of life with grumpiness, crying, ear infections and getting teeth. Yay, what I live for...........

Ahhh....idiots

Apparently the moron that rearended my car doesn't have car insurance, and isn't who he said he was, nor the age that he said he was. Supposedly, this guy is 26, an electrician, and recently fell 4 stories, ripped his bladder off to one side, busted bones, teeth, etc. So WTF is he doing driving? He didn't have his license on him, and my insurance company is very curious to know why there was no accident report written, no ticket given for him not having a license, etc, and has even called the police department about it. So, we'll see what happens.

MiniZiggy is 6 months old today. Aww.........my how time flies.

My father in law is coming in this week. And of course, Ziggy is taking another week off. I, am not. I really want very little to do with him, his girlfriend and her 16 year old kid. That, and there are better ways to burn my leave time than to spend it with them.

I weigh 162 pounds. And I've been on a diet.......and gained 2 pounds. Yea, something has got to give. This is ridiculous. I have got to find something to help me lose this weight. I don't want to be seen in public much, and I almost burst into tears when Ziggy asks if I'm hungry. I feel guilty over anything that I eat, too. And having people ram my weight and slow running down my throat, on top of telling me that I'm going to get kicked out for not passing my PT test, none of this is very motivational. Cadillac isn't thrilled, either, and that's going to spell nothing but trouble.

I can't let Ziggy drive

I swear, I can't let my husband drive anywhere. We were on our way to work this morning, with MiniZiggy strapped in the middle of the backseat, and we got rear-ended at a stop sign not 5 miles from our house. Ziggy was driving. I swear, we haven't had the best luck with our vehicles lately. Anyways, MiniZiggy and I went to the ER, and we're ok(I have back pain, but nothing to warrant anything stronger than Motrin.). Now comes the fun of processing the claim. Ugh. I will have to update the story of the idiot that hit us later.....that's a story all it's own.

So, I go take my PT run test again, and I come in at 3 seconds slower than the last run. I know for a fact I'm going to fail because I am fat and slow. Something has got to give here, and I'm not sure what to do next. I already run myself ragged on the treadmill 3 times a week. I've been on a diet, for 2 weeks, and have only lost 2 pounds. This is bad. I don't know what else I can do....

So my Psychology class is almost over, and I have a middle C average, which is good, I am not complaining. I have one last grade to wait for, and then Child Psychology goes in the history books. My English class is turning out a bit tougher than I anticipated. I did manage to get my first paper's final draft turned in a day early. I felt very proud of myself for that.

Alright, enough of updates for now. Uniform must be ironed, boots polished, gotta go...

I am SOOOO behind

So I screwed up my first assignment in English already. I thought the Date Due said by midnight on 25 March. OOOpppppsssss, it's 24 March. Do I ever feel like a moron.........I did it, so we'll see what happens.


Had to bump my eye surgery until the 22nd of April due to an exercise at work. No big, gives me more time to save up for the surgery, since TRICARE won't pay for it. THey'll pay for boob jobs, but not LASIK eye surgery. Go figure.

Ziggy and MiniZiggy are home, which is good.........I'm happy about it.

Ok, short update, but atleast I got here to do it, as I have been megabusy......

Congrats CrazyGirl, on the new job! Be sure to swing through my area on your way moving up there, you can crash here if ya need to......

Monday Monday

It's Monday, and I have started trying to diet so I can lose of this weight and try to keep my job. So I am in withdrawals from Dr. Pepper. I have had one soda today, and my head feels like it's about to explode.

Ziggy and MiniZiggy are coming home tomorrow, and I can hardly wait. But the thing is, I can't get ahold of Bear to see if he'll pick up Ziggy at the airport, as Blonde made it pretty clear that they won't take Scout to baseball practice. Which I think is pretty shitty of her, but this is Blonde. Blonde is basically afraid of people who are black. She's quite racist, in fact, but won't admit it. Well, the town that Scout has baseball in has alot of black folks living there, and she won't go into that city by herself. Thus why they won't take Scout to baseball practice.

Mini update

I got off work early today, go me.......

Yea, so, I don't think Ziggy gets just how much it upsets me that I didn't get any consideration in the whole going to Washington excursion. The guys I work with, that know he's left without me, are not happy. They all pretty well agree that it shows a serious lack of respect to your spouse when you leave on a trip, other than business, without them. They aren't happy that I wasn't even asked to go. the funny is that I offered to go too, and was blown off, and then got 'You didn't seem interested' thrown in my face for an excuse of why I wasn't asked. How lame is that? One of the guys even mentioned that in marriage, you're supposed to be one with each other. And to go off without the other one is like saying you don't want to be one anymore, and that you don't want that person to be a part of what's going on.

And you know what? That's exactly how I feel. The guys have hit it all on the head. Hell, one got pissed off and said that Ziggy would be getting hell from him when he gets back.

Yea, I'm not happy about this.

Ooooppsss, long time between updates

Ziggy is finally in Washington. He calls me every day, and I even get email. Why don't I feel lie I miss him like crazy? I mean, yea, my days are different without him and MiniZiggy, but it's not like I'm sick with missing them. Ok, maybe MiniZiggy more than Ziggy, but you get the idea. I don't know, I almost rather he not call, because when he does, it's nothing new, really. Just the same things over and over.

Work is alright, I guess. I failed my PT test, I'll save that for another update.

Scout has missed most of baseball practice this week, due to the constant rain. I called his coach this afternoon, and he was an ass, trying to tell me that I didn't have a child on his team, since my last name and Scout's are different.

Well, I am massively tired. I am going to shower and go to bed. Oh, I had my hair cut off...

News updates

I am having LASIK eye surgery on April 8. I can't wait!

My Father In Law is coming to visit the 6-8 of April. And is bringing his girlfriend(no, my inlaws aren't divorced) and her 16 year old daughter. This, I can definitely wait for. Honestly, I don't really want to be around for this. I don't feel like making nice to people I'm not so sure I get along with, and strangers.

I have discovered that Ziggy surfs porn a good bit lately. Now, don't get me wrong, I know men look at porn and the magazines, etc. But, with all of this coinciding with his upcoming trip, weird behaviors and such, I am a bit curious. I was half joking with him last night when I asked him if he wasn't getting enough at home, and he trys to blow me off, saying that the computer has stored those sites for ages. Until I pull up the history( I know how to work that much of a computer) and show him what all he'd seen that day. BUSTED. So then I get the 'Am I being accused of something?' bit. Should you be getting accused of something? There's a good question. Hmm......hiding things from me, and not just web sites. Seems very telling....

Oh, and then comes the 'why are you upset' bit. He did this a couple days ago, and I let it go, didn't ask anything, didn't offer any information. He did it again today, too. He said that he knows me well enough to know when I'm upset. And then he starts apologizing for upsetting me. Again, I don't say anything, I let it go, not offering any information, and not asking for any. I don't think he knows why I', upset, and honestly, I'm not saying much, since I don't know what to say, nor how best to handle it.

Yipppeee!!!!!

I am going to have my FREE consultation done to have LASIK eye surgery. The appointment is tomorrow, and I am so excited!!!!! Finally, finally, finally, no more Velma from Scooby-Doo glasses!!!!!!! OMG, I can't wait!!!! Years and years I have wanted to do something about my eyes, and now I am on the road to getting it done!!!!! Happy dance has officially commenced....

Double standards and frustrations

My husband is about to piss me off. Why does it seem like I am the only one that can bathe and feed the baby? And why am I the only one that can load and run the dishwasher? And why, when he's already upstairs, am I the only one who can look for something upstairs for him? And why do I always have to use my bank card, when the whole fucking idea of him getting one was so he could pay for things, too? And why can't I spend any money to go out for lunch, but he can go out even though he brought his lunch?

Why wasn't I asked if I wanted to go to Washington? Why does my husband talk to his female friends more than he talks to me? Why does he sign emails to these friends, 'Love ya'? Why do I find out all of these things through the back door? Why is it I can't start a retirement account, or get my eyes operated on, but he can go spend money on whatever the hell he wants? Why does it seem like I am the only one trying to do anything around the house? Why does my husband take calls from people like it's a huge secret or something? Why does he keep checking his cell phone for calls, when previously he'd hardly remember to take it with him? Why does someone that he no longer speaks to randomly call him( and doesn't have his cell phone number) after getting the shit beat out of her, or threatened to be killed by her live in boyfriend? Why not call the damned cops? Why make him the first call you make? You're 3,000 miles away, what the hell do you think he's going to be able to do?

Why am I still here? Why is it that one minute he's kissing up to me, and the next he's an asshole, like his father? Why is it ok for him to get mad and take things out on me, but I can't do the same thing to him? Why does it seem like he's going to do whatever he wants, regardless of me and the kids?

Finally!!!!

Ziggy bought the tickets for him to take MiniZiggy with him to Washington State. I am so glad, as I am really tiring of this whole trip, and I'm not even the one going on it!!!Now, all I have to do is get them out of here on the 16th, and get them back here on the 22nd, and all will be well.....I'm just glad the tickets are finally bought.

Sunday, Sunday

So much going on in my mind......decisions to make, things to do, all this. And it makes me tired, I confess.

I am really wanting to get Ziggy and I set up with a retirement account. Something concrete, tax helping, the whole bit. I really don't want to end up like my parents, who have a fixed income, and didn't bother planning for retirement. Of course, my parents came up during the time that Social Security was sold as gospel to the masses, and now we all know that it doesn't pay all that much money out. So that is one of my goals for the near future. I've been looking at IRA's, and also Certificates, but I haven't decided on anything firm just yet. Much to think over.

I am on the prowl for an eye surgeon to do my LASIX eye surgery. I found one that wants $4400 for both eyes. I think this may be a bit steep, but I haven't looked around in this area enough to be able to tell. But I definitely want this done before, say, the end of the summer.

Weight loss. I have finally figured out what my problems are with losing the weightI gained since having MiniZiggy. First off, need to stop eating desserts. As I have mentioned before, I am on a serious dessert kick. I seriously need to scale this back. Also, I think I need to change my birth control. The DEPO shot is well known for adding and keeping weight, and I am pretty sure that it's part of my problem. So, when this one wears off, I am going looking for something else.

NEWS FLASH!!!!!

Did anyone notice I now have a photo album?????? Ok, everyone look below the archives and such, and there it is!!! Ok, I only have 3 pics in there right now, but more will come!!! I feel special!!!!!

Ok, I admit, I am afraid.......

Ziggy's going back home to Washington(I wish he'd go already, this waiting shit is getting on my nerves), and I am fairly certain he's going to see the female friend of his he's known/been in love with all his life(atleast until he met me, I guess). I really ought to name her, huh? Hmmm.......let me see.....I'm not coming up with much here. I got it. Kay. That's good enough for me. So why am I mildly terrified of something happening between the two of them and I lose my husband because I just had to kill him for betraying me?

Yes, I am over-reacting, and I widely acknowledge this. Go me, I can admit this.

I was telling Blonde (Bear's wife and a friend of mine for about 5 years or so) about this, and she told me that I wasn't nuts(which is good, because she and I are alot alike), and I ought to tell Ziggy about my fear. This is bad because then he won't go see her, and I know he misses her, and I know he talks to her(well, Duh.....I might not be fully aware of it, but I am pretty sure that I am right), and who doesn't want to go see their childhood friends that they haven't seen in ages? Ok, ASIDE from me..............

Anyways, there's my random for the day........

I am Chris!!!!

Or I'd love to be......anyone who used to watch Northern Exposure(God, I loved that show!!!!!) knows who I mean.....Chris was the radio guy who talked everything from movies to philosophy to his felony days as a kid.

I'd love to be that as a blogger. My own commentaries on the world around me, infused with insight and such. I wanna be Chris!!!!!!